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Disappointment?
December 30, 2008
I’m not sure how I should express this, or if this will step on anybody’s feelings. But the truth is, I’m really quite disappointed with this vacation back “home”. I spent months missing home and looking forward to getting back here to be with my family and friends, and somehow mostly it hasn’t turned out the way I had hoped. Sure, I did get to spend a lot of time with the parents (mostly nagging). Sure, I got to hang out with the brother and nephews (one night). Sure, I got a lot of rest (mostly because I had a bad cold). But in general, I’ve not gotten a whole lot done, either socially with family and friends or in regards to things I needed to get done. The Christmas party I’ve been going to for years - didn’t happen this year, they went to Cuba instead. The friends I’ve been planning to meet - oh yeah? well seriously I’ve not met them yet. If it’s not one thing, it’s another. One girl, I’ve barely even HEARD from. No replies to anything. And the bottom line is I’m really quite bored out of my mind, and too bored to even want to fix it anymore.
I think I’ve gotten to the point that I’m not sure where home is anymore. I leave in five days, but I’m not sure if I’m more missing my own home, or sad to leave, or really neither.
And then in my own misery, I look at the news about the violence erupting again in the Middle East, the world financial crisis, and all these countries everywhere undergoing political crises. Where is the peace, love, and fellowship that embodies the spirit of the season?
Gets me thinking. God is love. God is home. God is peace. God is eternity.
I miss God. He is so close, and yet so far.
Comments:
January 2nd, 2009 at 10:51 am
God is your heart and soul.