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Don’t pinch me
October 4, 2011
The last few weeks has been so unreal. After months and months of trudging through fog, all these amazing things have been happening to me! Granted, I did put a lot of effort into making most of these things happen. However, there was no promise that any of it would go this well, and definitely not everything is going the way I expected. Goes to show that sometimes you really don’t know what is best for you. I really do believe that there is a God looking out for me and guiding my life.
What’s been going on? Significant advancements in my 2011 Plan of Action. I’ve lost 12 lbs since August - totally on track to attaining my goal weight by December. My grants are submitted. Exam is done. Big manuscript is accepted - and they even want to interview me for a media packet because they think this is going to be big news! There are some very interesting and unexpected developments on the job front, and some security in the short-term to stay here while I figure this out. And I found the most amazing boyfriend! I feel so completely at home with him, and time seems to be of no consequence, at once both lengthened and shortened. For the few short weeks I’ve known him, it feels like I’ve known him forever. And when we talk or hang out, time seems to disappear. It’s the most amazing thing that I can’t explain. Is this the love that people talk about? That blog post on September 11 - is that what we call foreshadowing?
It really feels like none of this can possibly be real, like I’m in a really long dream and at any moment now I’ll wake up. I’m also feeling a little scared of expressing this joy, like if I dare to share it, it will be taken from me.
Please don’t pinch me. I don’t want to wake from this dream.
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