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Actions vs. words
April 22, 2011
Sometimes I don’t understand why people who aren’t particularly interested in something still feel obligated to use strong words and feign interest. I’ve heard that some people just feel they need to do this to be “nice”. But to be honest, it would be much nicer to speak the truth, instead of leaving people wondering and interpreting your actions. I wish people would just fess up and be honest.
Looking back on recent posts, apparently I was feeling overstretched. Let me just tell you now that this hasn’t improved despite efforts. A week in Hawaii for a conference, a week with my best friend in town, two weeks to work on papers and grants, and then another conference in Denver, two more weeks to work on papers and grants, and then two weeks vacation… and then grants due! Been going out so much and staying up so much for traveling and visitors, that I’m totally drained. Haven’t been eating properly, and struggling to get all the exercise in that I need to.
That said, I should update on the 2011 Plan of Action:
- Career plan - One manuscript accepted, one rejected and being reworked for resubmission. Grant writing in progress. 2012 situation… still nothing solid yet. Apparently on track. We shall see.
- Health plan - Hard to prioritize with everything else going on. With my mind used to working on a reward basis, it’s hard to try to curtail caloric intake AND money expenditure without causing some degree of undesired grief. Initial gains in January (lost 5 lbs) have since negated. Will need to think up more drastic means. I actually talked to my doctor about it this week, and she was surprised how much exercise I do. Didn’t have anything really helpful to add. Frustrating.
- Personal life plan - Well, boyfriend gained and lost. That was quick. Surpring whirlwind that blew in like a storm and burned out with little notice. Unfortunate, since I was starting to gain confidence in it. Does this count as having attained the goal in this aspect? I didn’t specify the duration of the relationship. Haha… not sure at this point what I want to do with this segment, and will probably have to give it a rest while I concentrate on the other two. At least I’m putting adequate time for my friends. I threw a party last weekend and invited a bunch of friends from different avenues of my life, and was pleasantly surprised how great everyone got along. Was a lot of fun! I have pretty crazy friends. You know what they say about birds of a feather…
I’ll admit, the first paragraph of this post has to do with this 3rd goal - men. Maybe in light of the discussion, you will understand why I feel like I just don’t have the time or energy to deal with half-assed men. Not sure why they even bother.
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