Caveats
October 30, 2009
It’s been a pretty successful week on paper. If I wrote it all out in a factual sense, the only thing wrong is my sprained ankle. Work and personal life would seem to be going pretty well. Pretty amazingly actually. And yet there is a disconnect, and I’m feeling melancholic again.
The sprained ankle is leaving me very restless. I am frustrated that I can’t exercise. Can’t do my ballet bootcamp class. Can’t go running. Can’t go hiking. I’m also frustrated that I can’t go out dancing this weekend with friends. The ankle just won’t take being upright for long intervals. In fact I still can’t completely put my foot down on the ground to bear weight.
And then when you go further into the details of these very positive factual things, there’s all these and caveats. Everything that’s going well is basically, “going well except that…” And I’m not just exaggerating this out of my internal misery or something. Everything really does have a huge caveat. And it’s the caveats that are making me feel sad.
Doesn’t help that someone is throwing a big party tonight on the back street.
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