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Bottom line
May 12, 2009
The bottom line is, the reason I was upset is that he just didn’t seem to enjoy my company, even as a friend. I mean, if I asked him about it, he’d say he had fun and yadda yadda. But it just doesn’t seem that way. First of all, he never expressed appreciation except when I explicitly asked. Second of all, despite how he seems to post about all the fun things he does on a day to day basis on Facebook, he wrote absolutely nothing about my visit, and in fact removed the news item about my posted photos from his newsfeed (and he doesn’t seem to do that for other pics). So despite what he says, he just doesn’t like my company. He says I’m being sensitive and that I care too much about what he thinks of me, but come on… even as a friend, it’s not pathological to be upset that the other person doesn’t appreciate your companionship. That’s kinda the basis of friendship. So that’s the bottom line as to why I was upset. Nothing to do with whether or not he likes me romantically. Everything to do with whether he appreciates my existence. Quite frankly, he’s taking my friendship for granted. Or perhaps, he’s tolerating it out of “his personal kindness”. And that’s just seriousy fucked up.
Comments:
May 22nd, 2009 at 1:54 pm
How awful for you !! I am so sorry that he is being like that. Well, that takes care of THAT relationship, CLEARLY. HUGS to you. That is simply rotten of him to be like that.
May 22nd, 2009 at 2:04 pm
Well, to be honest on retrospect, what I wrote is grossly biased. I wrote it kind of as an expression of how I felt about things at the time. But truthfully, he has done many things that are good, and he does care about me and is a good friend. I know it sounds strange and contradictory, but true.