Archive for January, 2008

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Missed

Tuesday, January 29th, 2008

You know what I really miss? Having someone I feel 100% comfortable and safe to talk to about everything.
I was just thinking about the people I have grown accustomed to confiding in. They are all either (1) too busy and not often available for any length of time, and hence I feel the need to […]

Family doctor

Tuesday, January 29th, 2008

My family doctor is so unbelievably useless. That visit was just a little less helpful than just walking up to a doctor friend and asking for a few basic prescriptions.

Depressed

Monday, January 28th, 2008

You know what? Lately I’ve been feeling anhedonic. Things that normally make me feel better just don’t have that effect. I’m easily irritated, easily annoyed, easily upset. I just want to eat and eat. Truth is I hate the place I am right now in life. I need to be honest about this. I hate […]

Fatigued

Monday, January 28th, 2008

Seven hours of sleep, 2 coffees (including one from Starbucks), a cold shower, and a power nap later, I am still so sleepy that I could just doze off right now.
I dreamed early this morning that I was reviewing a sleep record in regards to how much slow-wave sleep and how much REM sleep I […]

Dreams

Wednesday, January 23rd, 2008

When I was little, I used to be superstitious that if I daydreamed about something, then it would never happen. This mostly stems from observing that certainly things that I daydreamed about never would happen. I do realize that I’m generally very lucky, but really that has been about things that I don’t spend a […]

Better

Tuesday, January 22nd, 2008

I don’t know if it’s just hormonal or if I’m really starting to think things through, but I am feeling better about things today. A lot better. I think I’m done being crazy for now. :)

Excuses

Sunday, January 20th, 2008

I know that I have been toying with these ideas for a long time, but I feel like it is finally sinking in. Especially when I remembered the last time I had a very stressful period in my life, the final year of medical school, I also did this same thing. It seems that getting […]

Strength

Sunday, January 20th, 2008

I’m really glad I decided to go to Church this morning. It was very touching, and quite a bit different than the usual Sunday morning service. First of all, the “Children’s moment” was about how God created the Earth and told Man to take care of it, a preface to that they were handing out […]

More mundane updates

Saturday, January 19th, 2008

Hier soir était très difficile pour moi. J’étais tellement malheureuse. C’est confusant, parce que il y a des temps que tout serait comme avant. Mais c’est évident que ce les choses sont changés. Et pour ça, je suis triste.
Anyway, I went to my Pilates class this morning. Got there early, did half an hour on […]

Preened to death

Saturday, January 19th, 2008

I realized today that I have been doing things all wrong.
I’m glad to have a friend also in my boat to discuss things with. Today she told me what her family observed about her, and I found it very helpful for myself as well. As a doctor, we tend to have this idea in our […]

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